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CHARACTER NAME: Lilith Sahl
FANDOM: Trinity Blood
CANON: Just before going to the peace talks with Cain, before her death.
LOSS: Her rosary
SECOND LOSS: Memories of Elissa. Elissa was Lilith's best friend and one of her main supports during the war.
PERSONALITY: The main core of Lilith's personality is her caring nature and the endless love she has for the world and everything in it. She never loses her patience or belief that nobody is ever beyond redemption or forgiveness.
She was part of the Red Mars Project, one of four genetically enhanced clones that were created as laboratory rats to endure the harsher conditions that would inevitably come with populating a new planet. However, unlike her 'siblings' - Abel, Cain and Seth - she harboured no resentment towards those that made them, just ever grateful for her chance at life and to help those around her. She worked at the Head of the Medical unit in the Red Mars project, following her desire to help others by healing them and working tirelessly for the good of all.
Even after her three siblings lead the Returners back to Earth with the aim of starting a war that will destroy the world, she never loses her belief that they can love humanity as she does. She abhors violence, peaceful to the core, and will try to resolve any situations that present themselves with calming words. But she won't hesitate to make hard choices or join in a confrontation if it becomes necessary, even choosing to make enemies of the three people she loves the most to stand against them as the sole protector of humanity.
She became the Vatican's saviour, their self-professed saint, and it was only through her efforts they weren't wiped out and even managed to push the Returners back to what became the New Human Empire of the Methuselah, where Seth made her domain and ruled as Empress.
Lilith possesses something of a matyr complex, not afraid to face her own death at the hands of her own brother to end the war. The needs of others will always sit above her own wellbeing or safety, and her belief that there is still good in everyone can often be a big weakness of hers.
PARADISA HISTORY: The best way to describe the effects Paradisa had on Lilith, would be to tackle them from two different angles: the castle itself, and the people she knew there.
The Castle:
Having arrived during a world change plot (to L.A.), Lilith was immediately introduced to the fluidity of the world she now inhabited. It was quite a shock to her system, as it's quite hard to deny any magical involvement of a place that can change its surroundings at will. Not coming from a world where magic exists (in fact, such a great stock is placed on technology there), this was something that she found quite hard to come to terms with.
As time passed and other events and losses occurred, she began to see Paradisa as an almost living incarnation of the philosophy she preaches – that in order to have light, one must have dark as well to throw it into sharp relief. That's not to say she ever welcomed the horrors that could sometimes happen, and she always felt sorrow for anyone hurt by them. But she used their existence to help her treasure the good things that happened, and enjoy them more fully for the gifts that they were.
She only went through very few personal losses in her time in the castle, and none were particularly detrimental. For example, she spent some time as a tiger, and the only impact this served was as a reminder that the castle was capable of great feats with little effort. It was the castle-wide losses as a whole that had the deepest impact on her, the most notable of which was definitely the Berserk plot. It was during the night when demonic characters/characters with demonic traits lost control, and for the first time she was left under the thrall of 04 (the strain of Crusnik inside her). She seriously injured a very dear friend of hers during this loss of control and, even though she didn't outwardly show it much, it shook her to the core. She has always had a very strong personality and sense of her own moral compass, which nobody has ever been able to turn her from (for example in canon, even the love she held for her family, didn't stop her fighting against them in the war because she believed it was the right thing to do). So for the castle to so easily take that control away from her, and make her act in a manner completely against her beliefs and morals, is something that has instilled her with a wariness of the place as a whole. In practical terms of how this has affected her, it's mostly made her cut back on bacillus intake. She isn't starving the nanomachines by any means, as she believes that's just as dangerous for other reasons, but she is keeping them weaker than she would back home to make her easier to overpower should it ever become necessary again.
The People
It's the people that made the greatest impact on Lilith during her stay in the castle previously. While she has always held a great love for all of humanity, she has not had many relationships that haven't been on a professional level outside of her immediate family. It's a blessing she is truly thankful for and one of the reasons she was grateful to be in Paradisa, and this is shown most noticeably in three examples.
The first of these is Puddleglum, who became such a close friend that he was the one to give her away at her wedding. She had never met anyone quite like him before; he was a good-hearted man, but entirely pessimistic. She started by simply trying to lighten his view on life, but ended by seeing that he actually did see the best in things, complaining was just what got him through the day. He was important for being the first real friend she made outside of her immediate family; he was someone she felt she could rely on, and someone she ended up caring for as deeply as if he had been a friend for life.
Secondly, is Nanako. Lilith has always been a maternal person, she helped raise and nurture Abel, Cain and Seth, but this was an entirely different situation. The little girl was not an advanced clone, nor battling odds against scientists and experimentation... she was just an ordinary child in need of a loving guide. It took a little while to win over her trust, but the two of them built a relationship that fostered deep bonds and familial ties. By the time she left Paradisa, Lilith truly thought of Nanako as her own daughter.
Finally, but most importantly, is Abel. While this is a canon relationship, the nature of their interaction in Paradisa was worlds away from the man she would recognise as Abel, due to their different canon points. In seeing him as he is in this place, she was able to see the realisation of the man she had always believed in. His good heart, his love of humans, and finally overcoming his temper... these were the reasons she gave up her life, to open his eyes, and to see that her efforts had been successful is something she is so grateful for. She has always loved him, but in Paradisa, their love was finally allowed to blossom and grow without the backdrop of a war or persecution, finally culminating in them exchanging marriage vows to become husband and wife. The journey she went on with Abel during her time in the castle, is one that has given her a deep seated peace and contentment, as well as a validation for her actions back home.
Overall, while the experiences that Lilith had in the castle were highly important to her in many ways, especially regarding the relationships made, as a person she has not changed that much. She has always been very strong in herself, in who she is, and much of what happened only served to strengthen that. She remains in love with humanity, a person with strong morals, and someone who has the ability to do what she believes is right, whatever the consequences of that might be.
THIRD-PERSON WRITING SAMPLE: The stench of blood was heavy in the air, the bodies of both the Vatican operatives and the Returners littering the decimated shell of what had once been a beautiful town in Albion. The guards that flanked her on both sides blanched, pale and disgusted at the sight, unwilling to move closer.
Not Lilith.
It was without fear that she stepped out, bare feet silently padding down a street slick with blood. Compassion and a deep sadness fell over her face, golden eyes reflecting a sorrow for lives lost, but more than that, a pity for the ones who felt they needed to lash out so violently. Her poor lost family, how her heart ached for the deep pain they felt that had driven them to this. Still so like children, afraid and lost, hiding behind violence against a world she knew they didn't truly hate.
A bitter wind whipped vibrant red hair behind her, the soft chiming of bells ringing out as though to soothe the souls of the departed. She paused by the body of a child, his mother laying barely three feet away with dead arms outstretched. With a quiet prayer, she scooped the child into her arms and gently placed it back in the arms of the mother.
Moving further through the shell of the once prosperous town, rubble and ash crunching softly under her feet, he finally saw what she had come to see. The three of them stood like demi-gods or avenging angels, revelling in the death they had brought on the innocents scattered around them.
So seemingly delighted, and so lost. Her fingers curled around the rosary at her chest and she offered up a fervent prayer for them to find their way, and listen to the truth of their hearts.
FIRST-PERSON WRITING SAMPLE: [This was not the Ark, nor Earth, she knew this instinctively when she opened her eyes.
Had Cain brought her somewhere else, trying to wrong-foot her?
A soft chiming of bells sounded over the journal she had yet to notice open by her bedside, as she moved over to the window and looked down at the strange new world she found herself in.
Her fingers went to curl around her rosary, only to find it missing.]
Where am I?
[Her voice was quiet, but calm. Wherever she had found herself, she would find her way back to the Ark and this war would finally end.]
INTENT: Lilith was unique among the characters I played for her ideals and serene personality, I really miss playing that. I also think she will balance out my current cast of idiot comedic failures.
FANDOM: Trinity Blood
CANON: Just before going to the peace talks with Cain, before her death.
LOSS: Her rosary
SECOND LOSS: Memories of Elissa. Elissa was Lilith's best friend and one of her main supports during the war.
PERSONALITY: The main core of Lilith's personality is her caring nature and the endless love she has for the world and everything in it. She never loses her patience or belief that nobody is ever beyond redemption or forgiveness.
She was part of the Red Mars Project, one of four genetically enhanced clones that were created as laboratory rats to endure the harsher conditions that would inevitably come with populating a new planet. However, unlike her 'siblings' - Abel, Cain and Seth - she harboured no resentment towards those that made them, just ever grateful for her chance at life and to help those around her. She worked at the Head of the Medical unit in the Red Mars project, following her desire to help others by healing them and working tirelessly for the good of all.
Even after her three siblings lead the Returners back to Earth with the aim of starting a war that will destroy the world, she never loses her belief that they can love humanity as she does. She abhors violence, peaceful to the core, and will try to resolve any situations that present themselves with calming words. But she won't hesitate to make hard choices or join in a confrontation if it becomes necessary, even choosing to make enemies of the three people she loves the most to stand against them as the sole protector of humanity.
She became the Vatican's saviour, their self-professed saint, and it was only through her efforts they weren't wiped out and even managed to push the Returners back to what became the New Human Empire of the Methuselah, where Seth made her domain and ruled as Empress.
Lilith possesses something of a matyr complex, not afraid to face her own death at the hands of her own brother to end the war. The needs of others will always sit above her own wellbeing or safety, and her belief that there is still good in everyone can often be a big weakness of hers.
PARADISA HISTORY: The best way to describe the effects Paradisa had on Lilith, would be to tackle them from two different angles: the castle itself, and the people she knew there.
The Castle:
Having arrived during a world change plot (to L.A.), Lilith was immediately introduced to the fluidity of the world she now inhabited. It was quite a shock to her system, as it's quite hard to deny any magical involvement of a place that can change its surroundings at will. Not coming from a world where magic exists (in fact, such a great stock is placed on technology there), this was something that she found quite hard to come to terms with.
As time passed and other events and losses occurred, she began to see Paradisa as an almost living incarnation of the philosophy she preaches – that in order to have light, one must have dark as well to throw it into sharp relief. That's not to say she ever welcomed the horrors that could sometimes happen, and she always felt sorrow for anyone hurt by them. But she used their existence to help her treasure the good things that happened, and enjoy them more fully for the gifts that they were.
She only went through very few personal losses in her time in the castle, and none were particularly detrimental. For example, she spent some time as a tiger, and the only impact this served was as a reminder that the castle was capable of great feats with little effort. It was the castle-wide losses as a whole that had the deepest impact on her, the most notable of which was definitely the Berserk plot. It was during the night when demonic characters/characters with demonic traits lost control, and for the first time she was left under the thrall of 04 (the strain of Crusnik inside her). She seriously injured a very dear friend of hers during this loss of control and, even though she didn't outwardly show it much, it shook her to the core. She has always had a very strong personality and sense of her own moral compass, which nobody has ever been able to turn her from (for example in canon, even the love she held for her family, didn't stop her fighting against them in the war because she believed it was the right thing to do). So for the castle to so easily take that control away from her, and make her act in a manner completely against her beliefs and morals, is something that has instilled her with a wariness of the place as a whole. In practical terms of how this has affected her, it's mostly made her cut back on bacillus intake. She isn't starving the nanomachines by any means, as she believes that's just as dangerous for other reasons, but she is keeping them weaker than she would back home to make her easier to overpower should it ever become necessary again.
The People
It's the people that made the greatest impact on Lilith during her stay in the castle previously. While she has always held a great love for all of humanity, she has not had many relationships that haven't been on a professional level outside of her immediate family. It's a blessing she is truly thankful for and one of the reasons she was grateful to be in Paradisa, and this is shown most noticeably in three examples.
The first of these is Puddleglum, who became such a close friend that he was the one to give her away at her wedding. She had never met anyone quite like him before; he was a good-hearted man, but entirely pessimistic. She started by simply trying to lighten his view on life, but ended by seeing that he actually did see the best in things, complaining was just what got him through the day. He was important for being the first real friend she made outside of her immediate family; he was someone she felt she could rely on, and someone she ended up caring for as deeply as if he had been a friend for life.
Secondly, is Nanako. Lilith has always been a maternal person, she helped raise and nurture Abel, Cain and Seth, but this was an entirely different situation. The little girl was not an advanced clone, nor battling odds against scientists and experimentation... she was just an ordinary child in need of a loving guide. It took a little while to win over her trust, but the two of them built a relationship that fostered deep bonds and familial ties. By the time she left Paradisa, Lilith truly thought of Nanako as her own daughter.
Finally, but most importantly, is Abel. While this is a canon relationship, the nature of their interaction in Paradisa was worlds away from the man she would recognise as Abel, due to their different canon points. In seeing him as he is in this place, she was able to see the realisation of the man she had always believed in. His good heart, his love of humans, and finally overcoming his temper... these were the reasons she gave up her life, to open his eyes, and to see that her efforts had been successful is something she is so grateful for. She has always loved him, but in Paradisa, their love was finally allowed to blossom and grow without the backdrop of a war or persecution, finally culminating in them exchanging marriage vows to become husband and wife. The journey she went on with Abel during her time in the castle, is one that has given her a deep seated peace and contentment, as well as a validation for her actions back home.
Overall, while the experiences that Lilith had in the castle were highly important to her in many ways, especially regarding the relationships made, as a person she has not changed that much. She has always been very strong in herself, in who she is, and much of what happened only served to strengthen that. She remains in love with humanity, a person with strong morals, and someone who has the ability to do what she believes is right, whatever the consequences of that might be.
THIRD-PERSON WRITING SAMPLE: The stench of blood was heavy in the air, the bodies of both the Vatican operatives and the Returners littering the decimated shell of what had once been a beautiful town in Albion. The guards that flanked her on both sides blanched, pale and disgusted at the sight, unwilling to move closer.
Not Lilith.
It was without fear that she stepped out, bare feet silently padding down a street slick with blood. Compassion and a deep sadness fell over her face, golden eyes reflecting a sorrow for lives lost, but more than that, a pity for the ones who felt they needed to lash out so violently. Her poor lost family, how her heart ached for the deep pain they felt that had driven them to this. Still so like children, afraid and lost, hiding behind violence against a world she knew they didn't truly hate.
A bitter wind whipped vibrant red hair behind her, the soft chiming of bells ringing out as though to soothe the souls of the departed. She paused by the body of a child, his mother laying barely three feet away with dead arms outstretched. With a quiet prayer, she scooped the child into her arms and gently placed it back in the arms of the mother.
Moving further through the shell of the once prosperous town, rubble and ash crunching softly under her feet, he finally saw what she had come to see. The three of them stood like demi-gods or avenging angels, revelling in the death they had brought on the innocents scattered around them.
So seemingly delighted, and so lost. Her fingers curled around the rosary at her chest and she offered up a fervent prayer for them to find their way, and listen to the truth of their hearts.
FIRST-PERSON WRITING SAMPLE: [This was not the Ark, nor Earth, she knew this instinctively when she opened her eyes.
Had Cain brought her somewhere else, trying to wrong-foot her?
A soft chiming of bells sounded over the journal she had yet to notice open by her bedside, as she moved over to the window and looked down at the strange new world she found herself in.
Her fingers went to curl around her rosary, only to find it missing.]
Where am I?
[Her voice was quiet, but calm. Wherever she had found herself, she would find her way back to the Ark and this war would finally end.]
INTENT: Lilith was unique among the characters I played for her ideals and serene personality, I really miss playing that. I also think she will balance out my current cast of idiot comedic failures.